The Golden Year: Lesson 1
27 was good to me! I can’t even begin to verbalize how life changing this year has been.
Tangibly speaking, ya girl upped a new apartment, new car, new job and new hair. Now why I would make the decision to add all these bills to my life in the middle of a panorama is beyond me, but trust and believe I’ve spent many nights staring at the ceiling wondering how tf I was gonna pay for everything. In November, I had the worst breakdown worrying about bills and a job that no longer served me. A month after moving in, when I should still be reeling, I’m crying uncontrollably in my apartment.
Music really helped me through some of the darkest times. That day I played “Let Go” by PJ Morton and “Hello Fear” by Kirk Franklin. These two songs have saved my life. They have been my guiding force through the last few months. The message in both is very clear; let go of all that worrying and fear and trust that your steps are ordered.
So that’s what I did. I let it all go and gave it to the Most High. Them was His problems now. Lol
Bayyyyybeeeee lemme tell you how He smacked me with everything I needed once I let Him take the wheel. Yes, all those tangible things were taken care of but I began living a lot more presently and I was a lot happier. God took me where I needed to go and I stepped deep into my bag. I became a lot more confident in myself, my talents and skills and my own beauty. I started to love tf outta me.
In the year of 27, I also tapped into my spirituality a lot more. I started researching how my ancestors meditated and found their energy from the Earth. That led me to my crystals and full moon rituals. Now, some people gone say “How do you people in God and still believe in that voodoo?” My answer is simple, God made everything and gave it a purpose so I’m sure the powers in my crystals are divinely made.
Them crystals and full moon baths really have been life-changing; setting intentions, speaking life into myself and banishing things that no longer serve me. I wasn’t close enough attention to how things were moving but I’ve recently noticed how the things I’ve prayed for and manifested are showing up in my life. The things I said no longer needed to be present in my life are on the midnight train to Georgia.
You might think the crystals aren’t that powerful and that’s cool but even in that practice, I’ve learned to speak positively about and to myself. That’s a habit I’ve never been good at but I’m getting better with.
The golden year really showed up and showed out. I’m no longer lead by fear and worry. I’m not constantly thinking about where should be and what I should be doing next. I’m enjoying just fucking being! Even as I typed that last line, the tears are starting to flow because I just feel happier and lighter. I wish this type of peace and happiness on anyone reading this.
As chapter 27 comes to a close I’m grateful for every answered prayer, ever tear shed (happy or sad, every moment of frustration and every triumph. I look forward to continuing the journey of self love and possibly opening my heart to the love of someone else but that’s a blog for another day. Cmon 28. Whatchu got for me?